It is not lost on me that I’m celebrating a clear scan near Mother’s Day. It is also not lost on me that the significance of my scan – ten years out from when I was diagnosed! – is THE scan that’s near Mother’s Day. It is also not lost on me that it shares…
cancer
a sound bath
A music bath… sound bath… basically the same thing, but also very different. I’ve written about music baths before & let me tell you: they’re amazing. Especially if you do them right. Music baths literally pulled me out of the dark so many times. During my time on chemo & getting treatment, a silver lining…
another six months
Yesterday I had my six month scan. Before I continue; everything looked great, thank god. No evidence of disease; (& I’ll get to more on that later). However, this time around, my anxiety was completely out of control, (see fingernails for proof :/ they’re a disaster). I’m almost ten years out from my diagnosis, and…
gist awareness ’22
Yesterday was national GIST awareness day. All day long, my thoughts constantly went to cancer. Those thoughts circled my diagnosis phone call, my future, my next scan, the little symptoms I actually had when I was diagnosed, being misdiagnosed for almost a year, my label of high-risk… I could go on. All day I thought…
one year out
Yesterday’s scan was a big one. My cancer has the highest recurrence rate in the first 18 months off of chemo. This first year of being scanned every three months has been nerve wrecking, to say the least. But, yesterday after being told my imaging and blood levels looked pristine, the elephant, that had been…
goodbye ’18
staying present
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another loss
no mo chemo
a grapefruit
A grapefruit brought tears to my eyes last night. Yep, you read that right… a grapefruit. Over the past five years I haven’t been able to have a single taste of anything grapefruit, not one little drop. It’s been one of the many lovely limitations while taking my chemo pill, [there are actually a lot…
being present
beautiful words
“I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.” ― L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables. October is my second favorite month, [it follows closely behind September… because you know, birthday month is always first]. I love the rhythm I’m feeling in the classroom. I love falling asleep, listening to the cool,…
GIST awareness
national cancer survivor day
4 years: what i’ve learned
Last Monday marked four years. Four years of midnight foot cramps. Four years of tummy troubles. Four years of digging in my purse after dinners, & discreetly chasing my little orange pill with water. Four years of a low immune system. Four years. In a way, the past four years have moved at the speed…