Thank God I found the good in goodbyes
– Beyonce
After birthday month, October is a very close second in terms of favorite months.
I love Octobers for many reasons:
- the leaves turn
- the air is crisp
- sweet tango & honey crisp apples are a dessert
- MEA break
- basically all things fall
October fell into my lap at the best time possible. Time is trying to heal, and slowly, day by day, it is. Both miscarriages and my molar pregnancy diagnosis were events in my life I will never forget. The pain and heartache each brought left little holes in my heart, that honestly, I’m not sure will ever be filled. Both tested my strength, a lot. They each had the potential of pulling me down into a deep, dark hole.
But thankfully, this October has also brought me closure; it’s showed me the good in goodbye.
I found the good knowing the little lives I carried, the pieces of Tony & I, existed.
I found the good in my body’s strength.
I found the good in the arms of those I love.
I found the good waking up each morning, with a deep breath.
I found the good in Ace’s naughty [but funny] habits.
I am finding the good in each new day.
Even though I said goodbye to something I never really knew, I found the good.
And I guess that’s my goal for now; to find the good & take things day by day.
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October is still coming in hot, though! A weekend of just things Tony, Kaylee, & Ace, a new agility class for Ace & I, MEA break & a concert with my best pal, & most likely eating as much apple crisp as I am offered. 🙂
I promise I’ll be back more often, with some Wordless Wednesdays, some new recipes, and most likely a lot more pictures of my perfect puppy.
Peace out hummingbirds,
xo
