a slice of sunshine

First things first: my 4 year scans were ALL CLEAR.

I had visited the Mayo Clinic last week, & heard no evidence of disease from my doctor. Each and every time it soothes my soul to hear those words. I was over the moon that I got to see my doctor as well, because we also were able to get my chemo pill problems figured out. I’m currently back on Gleevec and feel 110% better. It’s actually crazy how different I feel, both physically and mentally.

However, my doctor is back to wanting me to wait an additional 18 months after I’m done with chemo next spring, before we start our family.

I feel like almost every appointment leaves me with a bittersweet taste in my mouth.

I’m incredibly thankful and blessed when I hear clear scans, but a little wind is usually taken out of my sails with a storm of reality.

Obviously, I want my body to be as healthy as possible when the times comes to get pregnant, but at my three year appointment, I was told differently. It’s frustrating. When the light at the end of the tunnel seems reachable, only to have the road extend itself for what seems like another eternity.

But as F. Scott Fitzgerald says,

So we beat on, boats against the current.

We have been taking things day by day. We have been planning fun weekend getaways & vacations, [see our Mexico pics below]. We have been building our relationship & learning and growing as a couple every day.

We have been keeping on, keeping on.

& we’ll continue to do just that.

On to other news…

We got back from Mexico yesterday!

In short, it was THE most relaxing vacation. Tony and I literally didn’t have one worry in the world. We ate, we beached, we drank, we swam, and we slept; it was simply amazing.

Today, my pal Ace and I had a day date of catching up. We did laundry, went hunting for sticks in the woods, and caught up on all the snuggles I missed while we were gone.

I’m off to do more of just that – but I’ll be back soon with a couple recipes I’ve been cookin’ up.

xo my peanuts-