life to-do | a tattoo

Last night I completed one of my life to-dos: I got my first tattoo.

It was amazing!

I have been blogging about this life to-do for the past couple weeks, but I have wanted this tattoo for the past year. The design has changed over the year; however, the meaning has stayed the same. I wanted something that would signify my journey with cancer; something that would help me get through scans, blood draws, & would coat my mind with strength when strength is needed. I am absolutely in love with the result.. & the crazy thing is, I feel stronger with it.

I laid in bed this morning, looking at my Instagram account, looking at the picture I had posted last night, and tears came to my eyes. One of the most amazing things getting this tattoo reminded me of was how many people I have behind me, cheering me on, through the unknown years to come. I think it was one of the best moments I’ve had in a long time; realizing how loved I am & that I am never going to be alone on this path.

 

be brave

That’s all it says, in Tony’s handwriting. And it’s right smack in the middle of my forearm so that I may see it, always.

I can see it during my lab appointments, when the needle goes in for blood level counts. I can see it when I get my IV for my scans at Mayo. I can see it during my actual scan; when I’m the most scared, thinking of possible outcomes. I can see it while my doctors deliver the news, clear scans or not clear scans. It will be a constant; it will remind me that I am brave; I will get through.

xo – off to grade 8th grade projects, go out to dinner and comedy show with my fabulous husband, & best friend and her husband.

Life is good, my daisies.